What I am certain of, in these inwardly tumultuous times, is my distinct requirement for a long nap. I've passed the point of dozing so as I now feel inebriated from my wakeful state. My body is deteriorating, and I long for Saturday.
There is a string of words I will offer next, it won't mean much, but .. anyway, here's my list:
graduation
betrothal
future
career
questions
directions
possibilities
paralysis
potential
.. add to the mix, that I found my long lost mentor, who, ironically enough is now based in New York. I wonder for how long that's been the case. I'm not even sure if I want to reconnect anymore. I've made no real efforts.
..
I had a very bad day. I've had a very bad two days. It's as if too much was going right, and a restoration of balance was in order. Today I found out that-- nevermind, it's too complicated for me to sort through the unjust nature of today. But then later I got a call - a "yes" kind of call.. the specifics don't really matter so much. Anyway, it helped.
I'm exhausted. I promise to try to make more sense anon.
